Post lunar eclipse- progress report

Well, it finally dawned on me today. We were called upon this mission to come here as beings of light to Planet Earth. We thought the mission would actually be easier. In Source, the heavy density of Earth and polarity is quite uncomfortable and difficult to imagine. Somewhere in the past, I signed a contract to be here and shine my Light upon the World. No matter what happens, this is what I have to do. I am a Being of Light. I finally get it and understand now what is required to Ascend. There is no one other than yourself helping you or stopping you. In the next two years when we are closest to the Edge, YOU can do it. YOU can reconnect to your mission, remember who you are, JUMP that Grid and ASCEND!!!V DO IT!!!

Total Eclipse of the heart

Tongue-in-cheek,i titled my post. This 45 day period of 3 eclipses is no laughing matter as I have been speaking to clients, peers, friends and the like about how sudden and explosive this period has been. I myself have almost lost two friendships and had unpredictable moments with friends. I would honestly say this is not the time to meet new people and each of us lightworkers has the amazing ability to manifest exactly what we want in a way inlike that before us.

Introducing the Authentic YOU!

For ten years in my life, I played a role in the underworld. I was at the "party" for way too long, after my drinks had finished and still had my party clothes on when everyone else had their day clothes on. In my upcoming book, "Dark Goddess, Light Goddess"  I talk about playing both sides of the equation and doing so with the gusto, knowledge and full out abandon which I did in my twenties and thirties. I am now completely who I am born to be, stripped away of all of the labels, masks, glamour and clouring which I and society remade. I am Authentic, a force onto myself. Each person's path is different. Not everyone needs intensive trauma to create a diamond. I chose it that way.

Persephone was my role, and now I am relaxing a little taking a trip into the Elysian fields and fairieland remembering the many souls and lifetimes in which I had ease, grace and harmony. Well, I gotta say it to myself, cause it's the truth. "YOU"VE COME A LONG WAY, BABY!"

The Rebirth of Our Planet

On Tuesday morning, I was preparing breakfast and a glass broke on me. That never happens to me. Just that minute I received a psychic flash that some major new event was about to happen. I was terrified. I tested my two closest friends and I called them also. I couldn't calm down until mid afternoone. i kept scanning the news and CNN on- line. I felt it was an issue with security. Well, Four days later and the an 8.9 earthquake in Japan. And a tsunami. This is it folks. Our planet and Gaia- the earthly feminine energy will not take it anymore. It is time. Rebirth. Massive changes in landscape on this planet. Some things are dying and are then reborn. I am in rebirth on a microcosm level mirroring the rebirth on a macrocosm level. Get ready!

When I am hurting...

Yeah I thought it would be productive to use this phrase- "when I am hurting... and follow throught with what I feel. When I am hurting..I instantly want to call someone to tell them how I am feeling. When I am hurting, I wonder who is around for me now. When I am hurting, I ask God for LOVE!!

Rebirth

Tbhis year, after two long years of recovering from an abusive situation, I finally started exploring my emotions. I had a breakdown or a breakthrough you could say. All those months of planning, leaving my ex, setting up my new apartment, putting stuff in storage, losing my old property has put me on the path for rebirth. I am being reborn. I don't have the same job. I don't have the same friends-most of them at least. I don't have the same identity. I am a different being truly. Something happened to me on saturday. Something which happens to survivors. I finally was able to breathe and see myself for who I really was. I took a breath into being reborn.I felt something. Do you know how many victims of emotional and psychological abuse feel absolutely nothing? Well I did when I was in survival mode. And apparently this "state of being" for me lasted two years. Two years of obstacles, countless job changes, financial shifts, etc etc.etc.

I had begun to make peace with my property which was missing. It doesn't matter anymore. It's not me. The clothing is not me. All of it can be replaced. And if you compare that to my story of survival you may see how much it doesn't matter anymore.

I released Saturday. Cries and tears and sobs. I cried myself to sleep knowing that at the end of that dark tunnel of pain, I am alive and am reborn.

The flu, becoming well and other mysteries.

I knew last Tuesday I was sick. Sick as a dog in fact. I started throwing up my food as I was finishing my day from taking care of the twins. I felt so inherently weak. I thought- this is the flu. And then, I got the confirmation- aches and pains, chills, coughing up phlegm with a vengeance, and a record fever. But still I had my job on the line and perform- I must. This flu took away my appetite, rendering packages of Indian fare useless- soup, salads and entrees which might otherwise have helped me fight this battle. But I gave up straight away. It had a devastating effect on my energy level. I couldn't hold anything down either but I felt better when I didn't eat. So, five days of this and finally Friday I had finished work. Now, I had to attend to myself. I had a 101 degree temperature. But I didn't want to fight this with western medicine. I went straight to the avuryvedic expert- my roomate and told him my situation. It was so funny- he loves to eat. So do I. But I wasn't eating anything- not even an olive. No desire. My body was purging and that is all it wanted to do. So, I just took the remedies and prayed for the best. A healthy body. A healthy immune system.  A healer friend of mine asked me to ask the illness- "What is its' message?". I hadn't thought of that. So I asked- "What is your message?". Blank silence. Again. I said, "what is your message?" "Letting go"-after the fifth time, I finally got that response. So I ask now, have I let go?