Congratulations Earthlings!We are finally here. SO for 8(eight minutes) in between midday of December 21, 2012 and December 23, 2012, we will have the most powerful vibrations. And that is time to write down stuff. Revelations about your  life. Deep truths. Visions. Channelings. Poetry. Whatever. You are inspired and wow- "what a great idea" comes into your head. The 22nd is particulary important for all you spiritual peoples and regular folks also. Now, if there is a darkening of the skies on the 23rd or late on the 22nd, do not panic. I repeat - do not panic. It may feel like a void when the earth is very still and in a state of being. Just remember countles smillions on the planet have prepared for this and are ready. Awaken. Awaken. Awaken.

This youtube video feels like the most grounded and authentic version of ascension I've seen and I recommend watching the whole thing.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UiL0D-_cUKU

See ya on the other side of awakened.

Keys to Awakening. It's days before the Ascension. And I have been having some intense moments. This year has been hard enough for me, and everyone else of the planet. They say change is inevitable. But it is also difficult to get used to. This year we had plenty of practice. Plenty. At this moment, I would like to thank all the many people who assisted me this year. I survived and I made it. Two residential moves. A foot accident. Broken friendships. Yep that's a symptom of our evolutionary process. You create friendships. One person continues to grow, the other stands still. You have to expect it.
For those of youwho felt a burst of energy 12/12/12, Congratulations you made it! You are on this planet in the most energetic time of transition and events are happening daily! You are good. You've come this far now and guess what... there are three days before the Mayan calendar is suppposed to end...12/21/12. I actually feel all the energy shift takes place on 12/22/12. Master number 22- Aquarius. Collective Unconscious Evolution.  Just my take.

For those of us who have been exposed to violence, this year- I say a prayer. To those who have seen a huge upheaval in their life situations, I say a prayer. To those who have lost loved and family members, I say a prayer. We are rewriting our inner selves here and the work is not easy. Many of you have shed many tears this year on things that caused suffering. It doesn't take an weekend stay at an ashram to adapt a neutral attitude. It takes months and years of continual meditation, inner work, some therapy, healing modalities, self- reflection. That's what I and the many friends I know have done for the last several years. The qualities we find ourselves finally observing are: compassion, detachment, love, self-love, appreciation, gratitude, being of service to others, empathy, tolerance, patience, etc. We live these qualities everyday now no matter what hat we wear to the outer world. On that note, I must say that no weekend get-away for 12/21/12 is going to make any difference. Those with this meditation or that workshop: you're really fooling yourselves or maybe you actually enjoy drinking the Koolaid. It doesn't make one heck of one percent of anything. Get real. I'll be working on the eve of the Ascension be-cause(hello be cause- do you see those words) that is where Spirit needs me the most. Originally, I did want to go to a party. But quickly, my schedule was shifted. There is no doubt in my mind that Spirit is putting me in the right place at the right time. And guess what, the work is done. No escaping to the South of France for me. Or Ireland for an exclusive meditation. That's a lot of crap. Seriously. I would never want to go into the shift of evolution and the coming year - 2013- with my eyes closed like that. This is why I must thank my spirit guides for allowing the truth to unfold like that. This was a year for discernment. Discerning what is real and what is not. So hopefully, we create our reality everyday now like the "URUS"( brand new term)we are- not GURUS. That time is past folks. Govern yourselves now and watch the sparks fly! Happy Holidays!!!!!!

Channel for Hurricane Sandy- source Gaia Earth speaking



"We must change or be destroyed. The energies on this planet are "out of balance", The female energies are underrepresented. They must take their rightful place. We have noticed that the people surrender to natural forces. They should be surrendering to the Divine all along. The people are moving too fast. They are working too much. The people are aging, and we must stop this. In NYC, the flow is too quick. The pace must slow down. Water slows down the pace of NYC. We are predominantly a "fire" element culture here. We will burn ourselves out unless we stop. In NYC, the Goddess in underrepresented. She must be represented here in the city. We are dumbing down the culture so "nothing is sacred". God is sacred. So now, natural disastersare sacred. Something must change. The old is dying. Prepare for a new way of being where everyone is tapped intoa higher consciousness- "spiritual utopia". NYC is a blueprint of Atlantis, and if need be, Earth reminds us that she too can send ocean waves of 25 feet to 200 feet to submerge the island of NYC. o not kill our island. Raise your vibration. Raise your consciousness. Do not let others "dumb you down". If they do, find friends with higher intellect and higher consciousness. You are NOT allowed to pollute this environment anymore. Not allowed. Be prepared. This is the first of my many changes. Be prepared. Be alert."

I can't wait to see wonderful kids and teens this weekend. We are responsible for an entire new group of children- "crystal, diamond" children. These are new-agisms fot highly attuned, spiritual children who being born right now. The secrets of anapana respiration are amazing. I am highly motivated to train this new group of children. Here is a video of the technique and practice-

http://www.children.dhamma.org/en/videos/seeds.shtml

Transformation for the New Year

In July 2012, I did seva with The Amma team in NYC. This year we were at the Javits center. From the first trickle of people coming in to receive darshan, I could feel the love and change coming in waves to help all of us ascend. It is amazing. The last eight months haven't been eas but let's just say I won't forget them. All three days the home of divine feminine energy charged itself in NYC. Even the most male-oriented followers came in droves to see Mother Ammachi for a blessing, It is always a pleasure to serve Mother. This year I could feel a silent blessing working inside of me- sealing all the parts to finally make them whole.

Working with this energy really helped me in August. It has occurred to me now that old forms of energy are quickly leaving the planet. Ome of them I would like to focus on is patriarchal patterns of control. Gurus are no longer applicable, however a spiritual student might like to study with a spiritual teacher. I am here to say that teachers come in all forms, dark and light.  In my experience, it is no longer necessary for me to work with male teachers. Let's just say my experience this year took the cake and I no longer need to surround myself with people who are uncomfortable with the strength and power of women. I can suround myself with those who enjoy the Divine Feminine. Masks and betrayals come in every shape and size, and it's always nice to see the little individual peering out from behind the "Wizard of oz" curtain. It teaches us. However, on a new planet and paradigm of Earth in the Ascension, misogyny and name-calling of women will not be accepted on any terms. Women and men are free to be in balance and alignment with this New Earth and live in harmony and peace. Amen baby!

I'm loving it- Teaching children meditation

Dear Vipassana Meditation Center,

Thank you so much for the opportunity to serve as a group leader for children's meditation workshops... this experience was absolutely wonderful. I had an opportunity to deepen my meditation practice and interact with children. I absolutely love kids and I am sure it won't be too long before I have a baby of my own. Peaceful, natural, organic!

Sincerely,

Sareena

Vipassana Meditation Center

This meditation center is really really good, The ability to observe oneself and truly know the inner parts is an excellent tool. I cannot tell you how many times I have thought to myself- what a great tool for family and friends. I had enlisted for a dhamma service period and a three- day course. This was absolutely essential for my daily practice. One hour of meditation in the morning and one hour at night. It sincerely changes your perspective and takes you out of your misery. I can tell you it has changed people's lives. It makes you more yourself. Clearer, happier and freer.

Messages and Visions and Guides

This post speaks about the last month and my journey out of NYC. I spent some days with my mother. I forgave her for her abusive ways when I was a child and I got to know her as a person. She was a very hurt soul but still had sunshine in her heart when she remembered herself as a young mother. Then I went to the Vipassana Meditation Center and they taught me how to meditate. I was suddenly engrossed in this new spirital direction. I wa alive and learning new things. Still, with everything going on, I had no clue that I no longer belonged in New York City. I mean - hey wait I suspected it. Things were hard sometimes but never this hard. I'm doing all this spiritual work. no something was wrong. Fnally, finally, my intuition kicks in and I realize. Wow- what a realization. I'm all grown up. I don't need to defer to anyone. I can change my GPS freely. I'm done. It was then that I realized I needed a break from NYC for me. Everything has been done already. No more fresh juice. No more fresh ideas. I am sufficiently worn out. I want to begin in some unknown town and I am freely truely myself now.

Come on, New York, you're like an old lover. you will always have a special place in my heart, You always will. But I've got to move on now and heal and find different parts of myself.

Living Anew

Well.. this is it- big boys and girls.. I'm leaving New York City and every pore in my body is singing singing singing..it's over. I've been here snce after college and I'm done. I no longer am relevant in this city and I am eager to start my life anew somewehere somewhere in Massachusettes. I'll always charge NYC to my "combat years'. But it is over!!!

The symptoms were there.. I was drowning in NYC. I was in a job which I hated in the last two years and I felt taken advantage of. I was working long hours and then- suddenly I wondered what am I a running around for..this is crazy.NYC functions like a huge big matrix and the matrix runs deep. Whether you take the red pill or the blue pill, you are still trapped in a "ratrace". Lots of power, control and money make ts city go arund, but I didn't feel the humanity towrds the end. But there it is.. I spent my early adult years rolling around in it. It's tiring. It's old. And it's dated. There are other cities of prominence.
Thank you for sustaining me for nearly 15 years. Now I'm done. Headed out to the best!

A Tribute to All the Hell 2002 to 2009

 A long time ago I met someone I would later regret being involved with.

Or do I really regret the last seven years of my life.  I never thought that I would eventually become the prey. I did however label my husband a "predator". And it was not my any small stretch of the imagination. I believe that in meeting this man, I did set myself up for violence, misdirected anger and general abuse.

His process was to coolly calculate whether I was worth his time, and how much he would have to lay out to court me. Later I would realize his mentality was that every woman had a price.

It always came back to money and his earning potential. Constantly he reminded me that his potential was huge and he made more money than me. I learned to ignore such boastful remarks early in the relationship.

But what was I really ignoring. His superiority over me, and growing insecurity to state it at all in the first place. Looking back now, I can see the signs of narcissism and low self-esteem so clearly. What was that quote about hindsight that people make? Hindsight is always 20-20.

He was quick in arousal of anger, speedy in his need to be in control. I loved this characteristics initially. They used to make me feel sure and guided in his strong hands. Now, it makes me feel ill.

How do I rectify what I saw as strong and capable now as controlling and unhappy?

I remember not being attached to the outcome of dating him as there were so many choices at that time. Did I forget how powerful and attractive I was as a woman? How did I retreat into this cocoon of despair and misery that soon became my existence? I wanted to be heard and assured. And I stopped hearing and assuring myself, my sure inner voice had gone silent.

It was as if a flame had gone out in the candle of my soul. I actually didn't remember what it was like to have inner voice. Now that was disturbing.

Only years later would I realize that this is a common step in many women's journeys.

The doubting of their own voice, their own lighthouse which safely guides them in the dark of life. Well, my pilot light was not just dim. It had completely gone out. I had no words to describe the pain I was feeling at that moment. I felt empty like a shell. Someone had robbed me of all my "fight".  All that was left was a scared little mouse that was hovering in the corner.

At that moment, I knew implicitly that I was in "survivor shock". Survivor shock refers to the skeletal existence of one's inner voice after a traumatic experience. Bare bones reside where a very healthy scream once used to.

This was my "condition". I diagnosed myself. I had nowhere to go but "upward". I couldn't possibly fall any further. Free. Free at last.. God bless Jesus. I am finally free at last.

The Predator- May 2002 thru November 2009

The Predator by Sareena Sandhu

I belive he had the notion quite a while ago that he could woo women with his cash, his words, and his sexual bravado. I should have recognized his colors a long ago when i was still an ingenue. He, himself, rivals the "whores" that he paid for and claims took advantage of.

I suppose after 7 years I no longer represent the prey but also the predator now since I practice his malicious twisted ways. I have taken in all this supposed mafia man's anger and abuse and it has twisted my gut. I'm willing to put him appropiately to rest and out to pasture.

It never occured to me that his words and psychology were something more than old-school, now I see them as misogystic and supremely detrimental to any woman's self-esteem. He batters the very essence of my self respect by putting down my job, my personality and my family. I represent the last female victim of this man. His brutality and anger cut through me.

As the "prey" for a year, I saw utter hell. His world collapsed into a self -made web of cruelty and loneliness. Now, karma does really pay you back. I saw a man that attempted to fuck me when I didn't consent, control me in countless ways, and psychologically "destroy" me. 

I am alive and here to support that he controls nothing. And I'm here to make sure no other woman falls in the same trap.

Happy New Year 2012!

Happy New Year 2012! For those of us(and we know who we are) who have made it through the last four years sometimes by the skin of their teeth, congratulations! This is exactly the moment in time we have been waiting for! And we are the peoples we have been waiting for! We are one- and every single person on this planet at this moment has agreed to be here and do their part! If you thought about pressing the "eject" button one or two or even three times, you are not alone. But the point is you didn't! You made it!

So, at this moment, I must "air" something I previously hadn't. In June 2011, I had a disagreement with a certain someone and they yelled at me, telling me "all my spirituality is nonsense!", "My gods were dead", and Amma(Ammachi - the hugging saint) was dead and was nothing". Actually he screamed that at me. I would like to now take the time to address that.
 My fellow human being, I hope you didn't actually mean that and were only mad. My gods and spiritual teachers are my own. We all have a different path. We are take different turns. Your words hurt me, but I recovered. The attitude you then took for the next few months of superiority in spiritual matters will never make you prove you are right or correct. In the end, the attitude proved to be detrimental. You have a different path. I never insulted anything you believed in. I am happy that the veil of illusion was broken and I understand how you truly felt. Good luck on your way.

If we all can understand that we are one. We are helping each other through the ascension process and there is no reason to "throw anybody under the bus" while they are struggling. Happy New Earth 2012!